Reflections

I love looking back on my life and seeing God’s hand so clearly. One of the reasons I love to blog is because it’s like a journal that I can reflect back on… a very public journal! ;)

 I was reading this post from almost a year ago and just remembering the state of my heart. This time a year ago I was closer to Jesus than I had been in a while. I was daily depending on him, praying  constantly, working diligently on the ugly sin skeletons in my closet of jealousy and entitlement.  I am SO incredibly thankful for that time in my life. It was such a short time of waiting compared to some, but the Lord used it in mighty ways. It was a sweet time of falling more in love with my Savior as he continually reminded me that He was there, He loved me, He was sovereign, He had a perfect plan for my life, He was dependable.

I hate that my heart wonders away from the Lord when things are going ok, when I’m “in control.” What a terrible lie that Satan uses in my life to pull me away from my Lord. I have to fight like crazy to put Christ back in His rightful place in my life- the throne. I’m so thankful that He uses times where we feel like we are at the end of ourselves to remind us that we can’t do it alone and to draw us closer to Him.

Thank you, Lord, for your mercy and allowing a selfish, self-righteous, control freak like me to crawl in your lap, to rest in you and to allow you to work in and through her. Thank you for making me a mom, another way to expose my own selfishness and daily opportunities to pour myself out for my littles and to be filled up by You. I adore you.

Love,
Katy